One week post notice and it is so weird here. Everyone at work acts like(and sometimes tells me) that I'm making the biggest mistake of my life. That is ok though because I am just remembering in two and a half weeks this will no longer be my concern. I will be spending the days at home with my favorite boys! So looking forward to it!

I had the past two days off from work, this is the most time off I've had in a year and I cleaned the living room and the kitchen. It is so nice a relaxing to have a nice clean house! Tonight the boys and I are going to tackle their bedroom... YUCK!

I am trying to get enrolled in a CCEMTP class. Man they are hard to find but if I can get in one that will put me closer to the ultimate goal of flying!

I start full time this weekend in Roswell while still working full time here, the next two weeks may really be hard but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Dear Mayor,

Please accept this letter as my formal resignation as EMS Director for Fort Sumner Ambulance effective June 16, 2008. It is my intent to make this transition as smooth as possible. This will provide the Village with a 3 week notice and allow us to get through the Old Fort Days Weekend. I have enjoyed the opportunity to serve the citizens of Fort Sumner and am looking forward to continuing as a volunteer EMT with the Village of Fort Sumner. I am willing to commit to a volunteer schedule. This is a decision that was not easy for me; however, I no longer have full time child care and cannot afford the new daycare center.

Prior to my departure I will have a schedule for the months of June and July for both the day and the nights.

Some of the projects currently in the works that will need to be completed are:


I am sure there are more projects I have not thought of and as they arise I will be happy to answer any questions.

I am willing to continue to work on these projects as needed in the future on a contract basis, however after considering my options I have decided to take a less stressful position that will allow me to enjoy more time with my children. I have always wanted and will continue to strive for what is best for Fort Sumner Ambulance. I think it is time for me to step back and allow the service to grow.

I sincerely appreciate all you and the council have done for me and I would enjoy the opportunity to return to fulltime employment with the Village of Fort Sumner in the future.

Sincerely,



Samantha Griego

Not much is happening here, just getting ready for another busy weekend. Tomorrow I work for the ambulance from 4am to 10:30 am then its off the the hospital for work until midnight. Then Saturday I work from noon to midnight at the hospital.

My brother and I started injecting ourselves with B12. The theory is that obesity and the inability to loose weight has to do with a B12 deficiency. My brother has lost 6 pounds since Monday, and yes it is only Thursday. I have been too busy to weigh myself this week. The B12 should give you extra energy but so far not for me or I am really tired.

Kurt is out today campaigning and placing yard signs. I really hope he wins, I am afraid it will crush him if he doesn't even make it past the primaries. Voting is June 3rd. His signs look really good. They are black, white, and lime green. That doesn't sound too great but it is really eye catching.

Last week my friend and I decided to pull Colby's front tooth that was EXTREMELY loose. We finally talked him in to letting us tie a string around it. We finally got a piece of floss tied around it and tied to a door knob when Colby flipped out and yanked the floss off his tooth. The tooth stayed in but was sticking straight out. It was so funny looking. Colby finally lost the snaggle tooth but now the other top front tooth is loose as a goose and looks snaggled. The night he lost the tooth he tried to stay awake to watch for the tooth fairy but he did finally fall asleep. The tooth fairy was a little GRUMPY at work the next day. HAHA

Weekly Post?

So, here I am posting on my blog that has now seemed to become weekly rather than daily and so much has happened I am trying to compose my thoughts as I sit here. My last blog ended with the inpending state inspection, they called later that day and canceled due to an emergency investigation. Last week I was in the cool pines of Ruidoso for our annual EMS convention. I sit on the board of directors and I am amazed at the amount of work that goes into this yearly gathering. The staff never ceases to amaze me. I again found time to attend, and sometimes be the life of, several after hours parties. I am certain that I have perminately embarrassed myself beyond redemption but it was fun and relaxing in a rushed sort of way. I did manage not to race down the hills riding the luggage carts this year.

This week I am back at work. I had a message on my machine Monday morning informing me the state would be here early afternoon on Tuesday for the promised inspection. Monday was a bad day, including an arguement with an EMT who flat out said I was not doing my job. I am still mad. He is such an asshole. Tuesday brought the inspection, the state looks at everything from maintanence records to the amount we bill our patients. I must provide physicals for all EMTs. We count supplies in the ambulance, for example, we are bound by law to carry 50 gauze bandages. Really, 50? Is 49 not enough? If 49 is not enough, then why not 51? Anyway, no findings, no violations. Not bad for someone who is not doing their job, right?

Well, here we go into the month of May and I am looking at my schedule. Wow this will be a busy month! I am working two days each week at the hospital plus full time here. Oh well, it will be good.

Too sexy for my mini van

Colby the Fireman wearing my helmet.

Jamers the Fireman wearing my helmet.

Last week I had the worst call ever. That was Thursday. It was emotionally draining and sickening. I will probably be called into court to testify and honestly, I will have to side with the family over the Dr. Very, very sad.

Thursday night we traded our Isuzu Rodeo in on a little bitty Chevy Aveo because of all the driving we are doing and the price of gas, outragous! We owned three cars and none of them were getting over 20 miles to the gallon. So after driving the Aveo, I loved being in a car again. This morning I traded the soccer mom van for a sleek, charcoal grey Ford Fusion. I absolutely love it. But the best part is the mileage... I get 33-35 mpg highway. Plus it only has 14000 miles on it.

We have been running our butts off at work and then to add to it I got a call yesterday that the state will be here for their annual inspection 2 months early... tomorrow. I am ready for it, but you know me... I LOVE TO STRESS!

I am so ashamed, I forgot my best friend's birthday. She made Jamers a birthday cake for his last birthday and I repay her by forgetting hers! Not only did I forget it but it was March 19th and I remembered it tonight. Shameful.

Not a single April Fool's joke did I play this year. I'm losing my touch.

SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!! YEAY!!!!!!!! No homework for Colby for an entire week! Today was our health fair so I spent the morning doing free EKGs. Honestly, I love doing things like this. Guess I haven't posted anything about this but Kurt is running for Sheriff. I think he has a pretty good shot at being elected. Either way he has a job but if he gets elected he would be working locally again. The picture above is what he is using on his campaign flyers.

Tomorrow I work in Roswell, I really look forword to it all week. Isn't that funny?

My friend Lara is visiting her mother so I have been missing our walks, otherwise known as our gossip sessions.

SHAMELESS TARGET PLUG...
Kurt has not been able to wear his contacts for almost two years because every time he wears them his eyes become so irritated that his eyesight gets deminished but I bought Target brand saline solution for sensitive eyes and he is doing great with it.

The weather has been absolutely gorgous these last few days. I so have spring fever. Jamers is so much like me, he just loves to be outside.

I have been watching "Weeds" on the internet. LOVING IT!!!! It is so freaking funny.

Ok, so maybe I over reacted Monday about being accused of not doing my job, they didn't really come right out and do that. I wish we could just skip the month of March and April, I am just way too touchy this time of year.

My friend posted about Max, king of all Wild Things yesterday. What a great book that is! It makes me miss Cole at two. Sniff, sniff.

It is days like today that make me want to quit my job. I had a job evaluation for my part time job yesterday and it was GLOWING. I am getting a raise without asking for one. Then I come in to work on Monday, I am accused of not doing my job, I am made to feel like I somehow don't deserve to go to conference... which by the way is my only time to relax, even when I am off here I feel like I am under a microfying glass. I need this! My part time job is practically begging me to come full time and here I am feeling like they hate me here. Roswell has better pay, better hours, and better work environment the only down side is that there is no retirement which sucks.

So here I am gripping about my life again.

Sweet JoJo

I miss you. We all do, trying to act like all is well, trying to ignore what today is. You are in my thoughts today and every day.

This time of year

I am so sick of everything. I have ANOTHER cold, Kurt woke me up in the middle of the night because when I breathe my lungs are noisy, gee thanks...I was sleeping there. I'm tired of work in general, do you realize I have been working 6-7 days per week for most of a year. I'm just sick of it. Tuesday is my dad's birthday, I think I miss JoJo as much now as I did 3 years ago. The prozac just keeps me from crying anymore. At least on the outside. It is so strange how feelings evolve.

No school these last two days for Colby. It has been so nice. I think I am looking forward to summer more than he is. The weather was gorgous yesterday. My friend Lara watched the boys for a couple of hours yesterday evening while I was at work. They were outside playing with the dogs and one of the dogs bit Colby. Not bad, it broke the skin on his leg and it was Colby's fault because he was chasing her but Lara felt so bad. I hope it has taught Colby a lesson. Who knows though?

Well, I guess I've wasted enough work time.

Work

Here I am at work, it feels like I am camping because we haven't waxed the new tile yet so instead of putting up my desk top just to take it down so we can wax I just brought in my laptop to work on.

I hate the time change, I like having the extra light in the evenings but the changing kicks my ass. I hate having to get up an hour earlier.

I have the cutest little boys in the world! I absolutely adore them. I picked up an ice cream cake from DQ on my way home from work Saturday. I told Kurt what I was bringing and all he told them was I was bring a surprise. They were so excited they had cleaned the entire living room. How cool is that?

The other day part of Colby's homework was to draw nine DIFFERENT flowers. My problems with said homework assignment:

1. Really, nine? How many six year olds know 9 different varieties of flowers?

2. How many six year olds can draw a flower that even looks remotely different from any other flower they drew?

3. Why 9? why not 3 or 6?

4. Why do 6 year olds have homework every night??

So Tired

Today I had a follow up appt with Dr Chen in Albuquerque. DH woke me up at 3:30 am when he came in from work to tell me it was snowing. When the alarm clock went off this am I turned the news on to discover that school had been cancelled due to the weather. Anyway after much thought I finally decided to at least attempt the trip to ABQ and took the kiddos along for the ride. The roads were dry... not sure why school was cancelled but at least no homework for CoCo Puffs. Thus no homework for me!!!!! YEAY!!!!! I am so ready for summer to get her. I am sick of the 1.5 hrs of homework EVERY SINGLE NIGHT!!! They are freaking kindergartners. Also if they talk in the cafeteria they get punished and do not get recess. It feels as though they are preparing them for prison life. I really wish there was a private school near here.

Anywho, Dr Chen was not happy with the amount of scarring. He also did not like the allergic reaction to the stitches. That struck me as funny when he said it, like I was wanting the allergic reaction. LOL

On the work front. I have now missed two whole days of work this week. I am so behind that I will probably have to go in some this weekend or bring stuff home with me. Also we are remodeling the station so having to live (or work- I told you it was an addiction) is such a PITA. I just keep thinking how great it will look when it is all done. Honestly, it is going to ROCK. I got a new desk which I am loving. The walls are going to be a nice light grey called Silver Lining. Such a peaceful space.

I have to say, the Vitamin P is such a nice addition to my life. I am so mellow about the little issues in my life. For example, Jamers hates having his hair cut and squirms the entire time. Today at the walmart salon the lady refused to cut his hair, wouldn't even try. His hair was pretty long and she had the nerve to say that he would be better if we would cut it more often. OK then cut it you witch. I didn't say that. In the past that would have set me off. I just said "OK thanks" I paid for Colby's cut and left. I did not tip her though so I guess we still have a little way to go. LOL

Well, that is about it for today.

My day at home

Jamers was so sick today! He has Croup, Strep, and an Ear Infection. So we stayed home today. Jamers took a four hour nap so I used that time to catch up on Meigan's blog, do some laundry, and divide the two bags of cereal into ziplock single serving bags so the boys can't munch the entire bag over the course of a day.

I am so impressed with Meigan's blog. Mine is so boring in comparison. Well, I guess I better wrap this up.

Two weeks post epiphany

I just love this picture, they look so grown up.

So it has been two weeks since I last blogged. I am actually doing pretty good with my resolutions. Other than when I worked Saturday in Roswell (I know, that was suppose to stop) I have been to bed no later than 10:00 pm and sometimes as early as 8:00 pm. It has been great! I am on the schedule in Roswell for another month on Saturday's.

I called today about getting my IUD yanked, they said when I was ready to call for an appointment but to allow 3-4 weeks for scheduling. I just know there is a baby girl out there for us.

Well, that is about all for today.

IN THE MOTHERHOOD

I love these webasodes (SPELLING?!) they are so funny... sometimes not very realistic, bvt funny. It is such a gorgous day outside today it seems like a crime to have to work and insane that it SNOWED Saturday morning. I have been hearing so much about Britney Spears lately and I can't help but notice that she fell off the deep end and it never occured to her that she was getting near the edge. I am struck by how easlier this happens. We are blind to our own destructive behavior. Our parents try to allow us as adults to make our own way, they are stuck watching us drowned in a pool of our own design. Anywho, I have decided to start blogging to help myself deal with an addiction. I am a workaholic, last week I worked 86.5 hours. That is in one week and two of those days I commuted 1.5 hrs each way to work. I once thought I did it for the money but I have begun to think that it is truly an addiction. Other things in my life suffer because of this, my house, my relationship, my health, but most heart breaking in my children. With any addiction it is not easy but I feel the first step is admitting there is a problem. So here goes, I have a problem. Today I am making a commitment to myself to no longer deny the problem but to face it head on. I will daily take one hour to do something for myself. I am scheduling this hour between 4 and 5 pm. During this hour I will take the time to be proactive in making myself a healthier, happier human. After picking up the boys I will dedicate the next hour to time for them, we will do something TOGETHER. The boys and I will eat dinner together. I am setting a bedtime for myself. I will go to bed at a normal hour. My part time job is limited to one day per week. As I sit here I am overwhelmed by the thoughts of this. I know to a normal person this seems simple and enjoyable but to me this sounds like asking me to climb Mount Everst.

Giving this new fangled blogy thing a try

Well, here I am giving this blog a try. I took Colby to the ENT today, he has ANOTHER ear infection, or as he calls it inflection. His last set of tubes are out of the ear drum and Dr Bailey says if he gets one more infection or if this one won't clear with the antibiotics he will have to have the tubes again.

Anyway, that is about all today.